BEYOND THE PEN | A Journey Into Like Sunrise {3AM}
The purpose of a song is to tell a story, yet some stories we deem too taboo to be told out loud. I, however, am not a part of that general "we"...for the sake of authenticity and realness, I will say anything. I was up late one night listening to the instrumental to this track (because I didn't fall asleep before 4:00am throughout my 20s), and it dawned on me that people might relate to a song about pleasuring themselves. It's a highly positive experience that many (I actually hope most) adults have engaged in. And what can I say...the Jill Scott sample made me want to touch my body.
So, let's talk about orgasms. They are literally all the feels…the experience is… you should already know. Even babies fall in love with the feeling of touching themselves without instruction from adults. Orgasms release a powerful hormone called oxytocin known to increase attachment to others and decrease inflammation in the body, among many other superpowers. So while sex with others (with their consent at the appropriate age) is great for increasing your attachment to them, sex with yourself enhances your relationship with…you guessed it… your self. So if your favorite person to touch with consent is not available, or if you are not yet old enough to touch other people, you should absolutely touch yourself. It literally heals physical wounds while increasing your love for your self. And when you feel healthy and love yourself, it makes it so much easier to love others. But most importantly, how do you expect others to please you before you have earned a PhD in pleasing yourself? My mommy taught me that.
Through music, it is important to inspire…so with this track, I wanted to highlight masturbation as a perfectly healthy solution to a sexual craving. My life is so full of many moments in my sacred space practicing this kind of self love, and I am a better person for it. Why am I sharing? Because being a songwriter means being vulnerable and sharing your rawest moments, and finding ways to relate to others through your own authenticity. The track, produced by Mena Abebe, had a sensual but raunchy grit…so it felt like singing about masturbation fit. With pen to page, I described the process…and it was fall…so there was rain…
Lyrics:
I hear the raindrops falling
It's 3am...I'm missing him...
I can't ignore the way my body's calling
It's 3am...I'm struggling
He writes the rhythm to my heartbeat
Without his touch I feel without a part of me
So what's a girl to do
when I want his body with my body
Ah... Feels so right
Ah... I love me all night
With my finger, I paint his face in my mind...all the lines
On a canvas between my thighs...
Candles lit, curtains closed
Me and myself...nobody has to know
All my senses reach a height, they’re on fire
It's 3:02
I roll a spliffy just to take me higher
I close my eyes and watch my dreams come true
Thinking about his touch makes my love come down
I have to fill the void when he's not around
So what's a girl to do
when I want his body with my body
Ah... Feels so right
Ah... I love me all night
With my finger, I paint his face in my mind...all the lines
On a canvas between my thighs...
Candles lit, curtains closed
Me and myself...nobody has to know
It's 3 in the mornin and I want you
So what's a girl to do...
{And I had way too much fun making sounds on the mic in the studio. I was raised in the 90s, and the interlude on CrazySexyCool with Chilli and P. Diddy was my favorite. Call it inspiration or whatever…}